May 25th
This episode in my life that most refer to as the "real world" is now less than a year away and I am not ready. I remember my first year of college, the most common word of advice that was ever shared with me was "Don't worry; you have plenty of time to decide what you want to do." Well, guess what, I don't anymore. This keeps me from falling asleep at night. A few weeks ago, one of my former professors asked me "So, you graduate in the spring? And then what?" My answer: "Um, I don't know." Oh my god! I don't know. I always thought I did but then someone asked me and I realized I have no idea what the hell I am doing after the 24th of May.
So you are thinking: "But you have your whole life ahead of you!" Yeah, and this scares the hell out of me! School has kept me safe from the "real world" so to speak for almost my entire life and in just a few short months, it will be over. I regret all the times I acted like I knew exactly how my life was going to be after college because the truth is I have no clue. I don't know if I even want to be a teacher anymore. And this shocks me every time I think about it. But at the same time, I feel like it is something I should do because there are people in my life that might be disappointed if I don't. I know that you shouldn't live your life only trying to please the people in it, but for as long as I can remember I have been telling my friends and family “I want to teach.” And here it is, almost my last semester of senior year and all of a sudden…just kidding…I don’t think I want to teach anymore.
I think that deep down I know everything will work out. But right now, life just seems, for lack of a better word, scary. So I have two choices:
Stop thinking about my future and blindly jump into a career and hope for the best OR, embrace the fact that I have an entire world at my finger tips and look forward to all the change I am potentially capable of. Seems like an easy choice…well, easier said than done.
11.17.2002
11.11.2002
11.05.2002
Scholarship worthy? You be the judge...
My personal statement for the merit scholarship
I am a child development major.
I volunteered for Head Start Preschools through CSUS service learning.
I was a teacher for a day care program over the summer of 2002.
I am currently employed at the ASI Children’s Center.
I have sung in many choirs throughout my life and am a member of the CSUS Concert Choir.
I am fluent in American Sign Language and am very interested in the deaf community and teaching sign language to hearing children.
The purpose of this list is not to brag. Rather, these are the activities I am involved in that help define me. It is not these accomplishments that make me deserving of this award, but those I have yet to complete. I feel that my experiences in the field of child development and beyond are small tastes of what I am capable of. I remember my mindset before my first semester at CSUS: All child development majors become teachers. Admittedly, I want to teach, but the more I become involved with the field of child development, I realize that I am not limited to one career path. Child development majors can serve their community in so many other ways.
It is still unclear what experiences and challenges my future holds for me. I do know that I will be trying to make a difference in the lives of children and their families. Do I want to change the world? I wish it could be that simple. However, the knowledge I have gained through the child development department has taught me that change in the fields of education and child advocacy is necessary. I am confident I can help make that change happen.
I don't know. Too cheesy? We shall see I guess...
My personal statement for the merit scholarship
I am a child development major.
I volunteered for Head Start Preschools through CSUS service learning.
I was a teacher for a day care program over the summer of 2002.
I am currently employed at the ASI Children’s Center.
I have sung in many choirs throughout my life and am a member of the CSUS Concert Choir.
I am fluent in American Sign Language and am very interested in the deaf community and teaching sign language to hearing children.
The purpose of this list is not to brag. Rather, these are the activities I am involved in that help define me. It is not these accomplishments that make me deserving of this award, but those I have yet to complete. I feel that my experiences in the field of child development and beyond are small tastes of what I am capable of. I remember my mindset before my first semester at CSUS: All child development majors become teachers. Admittedly, I want to teach, but the more I become involved with the field of child development, I realize that I am not limited to one career path. Child development majors can serve their community in so many other ways.
It is still unclear what experiences and challenges my future holds for me. I do know that I will be trying to make a difference in the lives of children and their families. Do I want to change the world? I wish it could be that simple. However, the knowledge I have gained through the child development department has taught me that change in the fields of education and child advocacy is necessary. I am confident I can help make that change happen.
I don't know. Too cheesy? We shall see I guess...
11.04.2002
I had a excellent weekend, and here is why:
-went to San Luis Obispo
-got to see Grant
-got to dress up for Halloween even though the party, or should I say "party" was pretty much non-existent
-the weather was great
-spent some time with my second family
-saw one of the cutest babies on the planet...baby Drew!
After a weekend like that, how am I supposed to get back into the swing of things?
-went to San Luis Obispo
-got to see Grant
-got to dress up for Halloween even though the party, or should I say "party" was pretty much non-existent
-the weather was great
-spent some time with my second family
-saw one of the cutest babies on the planet...baby Drew!
After a weekend like that, how am I supposed to get back into the swing of things?
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